| a wake up call |
[Nov. 19th, 2009|08:15 pm] |
it had been a long time ever since i felt the same way 2 years ago. that kind of feeling was indescribable and disheartening. and yet. the feeling is back. i was on the verge of tears after everything today. really wanted to find a place to sort out my thoughts. alone. to think what i really wanted. i know its no use crying over split milk. but it is not the first time this happened. i feel really stupid to repeat it again. was totally out of my mind today. nothing seems right the moment i stepped in. hand shivering, heart pomping hard and that nervousness that never felt so real before. i tried and failed. miserably.
its time to pull myself up |
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| tired |
[Nov. 14th, 2009|12:24 am] |
ok. another week gone. now i am officially one month into sem 2 and i am still not used to it. i feel like i am a slacker somehow ): gosh. tests are coming up with 3 next week, following week and the other week. ok sounds werid. maybe can understand la huh. haha.
tep results out today. erm. acceptable la. did pull up quite a fair bit for my gpa. but the prob now is can i maintain it? with the situation now. hardly.
ok. this week is tiring with the fact that i am limping around sch =.= plus all the new stuffs that we are learning. gosh. i am dying. i need time. plus projects are coming!!!!! someone kill me pls.
settle my soul and body down
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[Nov. 11th, 2009|09:22 pm] |
guess what!!!
i sprained my damn ankle. when i was walking =.= like wth!!! *#(%(%)*#()(%# i cant believe i can injured it just like that. wah lao!!!! its now swollen like a big pao or like pig trotter =,= gosh. KNS!!! |
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| friends |
[Nov. 8th, 2009|01:55 am] |
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yknow. whats the purpose of coming to this world? to suffer? in school, in the working life, and then illness when age is catching up. i dont know why. but i am just tired. maybe in school. my mind is somehow not there. flying and drifting in lecs and tuts. in here, i am saying i dont want care so much anymore, but in fact i am more than worried about it. how ironic can it be huh. haiz. 3 weeks gone, and i cant settle my mind and body down. and guess what. i feel like stepping into the working world now even though i know it would be though. ):
2 of my sec sch classmates just left for aus last week. though we werent close, but we went into the same jc too. after meeting hs yest further affirm how vulnerable friendship is. friends come and go. one moment we can be best friends, and another, total strangers. i cant do anything now, but can only wish them all the best in aus.
there is just too much things in my mind right now. too much that it seems explosive when anyone touches it. gosh. i need a getaway.
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| changes needed |
[Oct. 24th, 2009|11:01 pm] |
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alrights. first week of sch - BAD!!!!
real bad. dont understand any lectures, plus so many modules - 8, plus i am not getting used to the studying life. damn. i cant believe that i am taking all the finance modules. seems like i have chosen the wrong course :/ damn hard. so many ICAs and projects groups that i had practically forgotten every single group that i have. and so many tutorials to be done. and so far i have only done marketing management. cant understand Business Finance and EFMA. plus. ICT ICA on monday!!!! BOOOOOOOOOO!!!! ok. i am gg mad. M-A-D
first week is somehow taxing on me. so many things happening at the same time. maybe it is time for a change. and i meant it. had been hearing too many things from different people and i felt bad. i need some time for myself to clear up my thoughts.
mum just flew back this morning. being a filial daughter, i woke up at an unearthly hour of 630am to send her off at the airport. it is my Nth time being there this year. really love the feeling there. (:
yknow, we are humans. i do need my own personal space.
i am tired of....
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